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EXPERIMENT AND EXPERIENCE- WHAT WENT WELL, WHAT Didn't

1/30/2020

 
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 “The importance of knowing your destination, following your star, correcting your course and tuning in to what is most important in your life”. Jonathan Foust, “Best Year Ever"
As life does, the circumstances of the past 5 months have brought about big changes. Inspired as I listened concurrently to Jonathan Foust’s talk: Best Year Ever, Parker Palmer’s audiobook, On the Brink of Everything, and Ajahn Amaro on “Less is More”  I made a note that these conjoined were to be my newsletter theme for February 2020.
Using his template, here is my own Year in Review:
What went well this year?
  1. Continuing Education, AKA Teacher Training has unlocked a few mysteries, brought about new abilities and inspired my teaching. Doug Keller’s workshop on the “Back Functional Line, Tom Meyer’s Anatomy Trains Anatomy for Yoga Teachers, the Muscle in Motion App, my work with a physical therapist for my years-old shoulder injury all gave me so much personal value I did the best I could to pass it on.
  2. Classes are for the most part consistently attended, with the Pain and Injury Classes most sought after.
  3. The monthly emailed newsletter has been well received, with some saying it has been of value to their practice.
  4. Weekly social media posts are keeping the Google search rankings high, which is helping our Community stay vibrant with new practitioners.
  5. Decreasing the amount of days per week/ classes per day I teach relieved my sense of drain.
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“Experimentation is how we learn, and a lot of experiments fail. If you live your life experimentally, the failures will be personal, and some will be spectacular. And yet, as every scientist knows, we often learn more from experiments that fail than from those that succeed.” On the Brink of Everything, Grace, Gravity, and Getting Old – Parker J. Palmer
What didn’t go so well this year?
  1. Attempting to teach yoga philosophy.
  2. Doing one thing at a time, finishing what I start before starting something else.
  3. Signing up for too many online trainings.
  4. Attended even fewer live, in-person yoga classes.
  5. Ended relationships with both my long-time yoga mentor and my strength trainer.
  6. Still haven't found a cohort of yoga teachers.
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Gotami asked her nephew, "How do I give myself guidance as to what is according to the path or to my habits and preferences? I have a lifetime of conditioning- I can’t always trust my own thinking. How do I discern what is the path and what is not?”. To which the Buddha responded, 'These qualities lead to ease, not to struggle; to being entangled, not to being hampered; to shedding, not to accumulating; to modesty, not to self-aggrandizement; to contentment, not to discontent; to undisturbed, not to entanglement; to vitality, not to laziness; to being unburdensome, not to being burdensome': You may categorically hold, 'This is the way, this is the guidance, this is the skillful action.'" Ajahn Amaro on “Less is More” Gotami Sutta: To Gotam
What am I working toward?
  1. Finishing what I have started, especially training-wise. Relaxing the grasping and clinging, fear of losing what I have now or not getting what I want in the future.
  2. Getting out of my practice bubble by taking occasional classes and workshops.
  3. Learning by following my bliss, leaving alone the well-trodden path of expectation.
  4. Staying in tuned with what brings on emotions of overwhelm and too much-ness.
​After listening for maybe the eight time, I sent Jonathan and online message of my gratitude: “Jonathan Foust, your timing is, again, uncanny. I am working through moving away from the tradition I began with, finding myself feeling untethered but also being true to myself and my students. I have listened to this talk several times and read your Year in Review several times. Thank you for sharing your experience and wisdom. Actually, I can't thank you enough. 🙏” Jonathan responded, Thank you for letting me know, Michelle ... this is a pathless path .... one step at a time. May your journey be blessed.”

The Economy of Gifts

1/2/2020

 

​I’ve been reflecting quite a lot this past month on the compounded meanings of community, gifts, capacity and The Seattle Freeze. 

I guess I will always wonder what creates a community. For the past month I have thought a lot about the significance and definition of gift. In studying community and gifts, the factor of capacity came up over and over again. This all led me around to theorize the infamous Seattle Freeze is our focus on transactional life.
In the 1970s, I was the kid the other kids were not allowed to play with because my family was “weird”. I have always operated from the visceral knowing that I am too intense and that I don’t fit in. I really thought a lot of this. I had no gifts to offer, no capacity to change. I knew other people made friends and did stuff together outside of class and that wasn’t an option for me. I didn’t have what they wanted. Honestly, that attitude went both ways- I was well indoctrinated that we were better than “them” and certainly didn’t want what they had, either. We were proud of our counter-culture.
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1975: 9 yr. old Shelly Pulsifer, in her nicest mom-made paisley shirt.
In 2016 I went to Boulder, Colorado for a teacher training. The first day in training, the first lunch break, the teacher and his posse insisted I join them for lunch. After that was dinner, and the following two days I was always invited to join this or that gathering- always included. Talking with my husband long distance, I recounted to him my amazement, “They invited me to eat with them- in 15 years at Seattle Yoga Arts, no one has even wanted to have tea with me!” John responded, “Now you know what the Seattle Freeze is.”
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​I work to retrain myself and our culture. I want to pass on what I understand has transformed me. Like (recently passed) Ram Dass’ Fierce Grace and Anna Forrest’s Fierce Medicine, I wonder if my teaching isn’t very fierce! That intensity of youth has not diminished. I teach that we must feel, breath and think, that we must know we are feeling (sensations and emotions), know we are breathing, know we are thinking. I teach that it is safe to feel, breath and think. I teach that our feelings (sensations and emotions), breath and thoughts are our corporeal reality.
The Economy of Gifts: “You give what is appropriate to the occasion and to your means, when and where your heart feels inspired. For the monastics, this means that you teach, out of compassion, what should be taught, regardless of whether it will sell. For the laity, this means that you give what you have to spare and feel inclined to share. There is no price for the teachings, nor even a ‘suggested donation.’ Anyone who regards the act of teaching or the act of giving requisites as a repayment for a particular favor is ridiculed (laughable, comical, amusing, absurd, ridiculous) as mercenary (motivated to take part by the desire for private gain). Instead, you give because giving is good for the heart and because the survival of the Dhamma as living principle depends on daily acts of generosity.” "The Economy of Gifts", by Thanissaro Bhikkhu. Access to Insight (BCBS Edition), 5 June 2010, http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/thanissaro/economy.html
Your privilege extends only to the act, never at any time to the outcome. Do not be motivated by outcomes, nor should you commit yourself to inaction. Stand in yoga, perform the acts. Give away the avidity.” – Bhagavad Gita, 2.47, translation by Douglas Brooks
I feel so fierce about you experiencing this for yourself, I am not always sure where my ability to teach begins and ends. However, I do know where the function breaks down: when it is motivated by gain. When my teaching becomes fixated on the tangible - are you coming back, are you donating financially contributing, are you making progress, did you just suddenly stop coming, this “Economy of Gifts”, this “Stand in Yoga” has failed. "What's in it for me?" is what I understand the Seattle Freeze to be. With that interest, the “mutual compassion and concern as the medium of exchange” is lost.
When I left studio teaching and began Aspiration Community Yoga, I was guided by Parker Palmer’s life of “Creating Intentional Community”. As I look back and reflect upon the past 3 years, what I see is that I have done what I am capable of and must release my sense of “it must be me” for the current outcome of success or failure. You let me know whether we have community within Aspiration Community Yoga.
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Wednesday, May 29 class, featuring from left to right, Jay, Aine, Patricia and Basil.

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